Get the light!

So this is the first official blog I've ever posted! YAY! My life is currently at a downfall. It appears that everything I once had a grasp on is slipping away. And everyone still expects me to be strong. In these moments of total desparation it appears (as always) that I am on my own. Im alot stronger now than I was when I was little. The moments when every gone, and Im traped in the silence, all the tears begin to flow. I let every thing build up inside me, then when it all begins to come out, there is no stopping it. I think I'm just afraid to tell people how I feel, because there is something about opening up to someone that makes me feel so vulnerable. And it's at those vulnerable moments when people tend to hurt me the most. After trusting them with some much, then meaning so little to them! The lies people tell, intending them to be reasuring! When was the last time anyone ever lied with intentions to help? At this time all the doors seem to be shut, I supose I will break a few windows! Get some light in this fucking place!